I sometimes have a few moments to ponder life, in between the housework, the children, the husband, the pets and the job and my mind wanders onto all sorts of things. I thought I would share a few general musings of my 40ish mind with you….
OMG I mean how quickly does body hair grow, I shave my legs one day and two days later I need to do it again. As I get older I seem to have hair sprouting from all sorts of places. So much hair so little time. My mum-friends with teenage girls tell me the new trend is no body hair anywhere! Christ alive it’s bad enough keeping up to date with half the legs and underarms (and the 6-weekly moustache cream removal) let alone stripping the rest, it would take a heavy-duty grass trimmer and I would need to stand over the outside drain so I didn’t block the plug.
Dealing with the greys
So what is it with males? They start going grey and it adds character and can make them more handsome (I’m thinking of George Clooney, yum). Us ladies start to go grey and it just makes us feel old, I mean I actually like grey hair when it’s all over and if I could go completely grey I would be fine with it, but this pick and mix and matches just isn’t helpful and seem to show up within a week of dying my hair. It’s a good job I have always dyed my own hair otherwise it would cost a small fortune. Then I notice I have two grey hairs in my eyelashes and a couple in my eyebrow, I mean what am I meant to do with them? Thank god for mascara and the tweezers!
A constant in a women’s life and they don’t seem to get easier to deal with. It’s a rollercoaster ride from month to month and it’s back into the black each time. I know some months I can feel so iggerly-piggerly (is that a word?) that I think I can’t cope with all the responsibility of life, and then the next day I may feel that the cloud has completely lifted. Roll on menopause, said no women ever!
Work, life, children and housework
So for the most part women are often the ones to take a backseat on the career front so we have this balance to create between work, life, children and housework! I add the word ‘life’ as sometimes it can be the only balance is between work, children and housework! There are times I think I could swap and work full-time if it meant I didn’t have to fit everything else in. I often say to my husband going to work is the easiest out of all my other jobs.
The responsibilities are endless and sometimes relentless. One job follows another and in-between you have to make sure everyone is ok. Often, I think it would be interesting to wear a camera and play back everything that has to be done on a daily basis and that still wouldn’t include the emotional stuff we are dealing with all the time. My hubbie often says I’m the ‘hub of the house’ everyone relies on me to keep everything on an even keel, which is nice I suppose, but sometimes it would be nice to have a reboot (especially if hormones are on the rage!)
Worrying about health
I think having lots of people who rely on me it’s natural to worry about my health. Having always been either a little overweight or a lot overweight, food has always been an issue (always loved my food) but I would like to be a little lighter not just to make me feel better but to help with aches and pains.
I have recently started running which has not been easy now that I am in my forties. When I hear stories of people being taken down suddenly with illness etc. I think OMG what would happen to everyone if that were me, (again worrying about EVERYONE else, what about me – I would be dead but that clearly doesn’t resonate, I imagine floating around watching the husband and kids and not being able to make anyone feel better).
Having 4 children, 2 stepchildren and a big mortgage can be overwhelming if I over think it. I try and keep things in perspective and sometimes think – what’s the point in worrying as in 50 years I will be gone (sorry that’s a little depressing but you know what I mean!). We may not be able to pay for expensive holidays (damn you holiday adverts showing the picture-perfect family getaway) and sometimes I may feel we are the only family that don’t go away but I know deep down that we aren’t.
My sister and I never went abroad as children and we certainly weren’t scarred by it. We literally went 20 miles down the road to the local Pontins a couple of times during our childhood and had lots of fun. Our nanny lived with us for many years (from when I was 2) which meant it was difficult for us all to get away, and looking back now I realise my mum must have felt frustrated – not that we would have ever known.
My parents had far less than my sister and I have, and with no means of borrowing. They worked hard to make ends meet and even now my mum finds it difficult to spend any money on herself. I would say the same for my dad but he will openly admit if he hadn’t married my mum he would have spent all his money in the pub and the bookies! When it came to credit cards he was just glad they weren’t around when he was a lad as it would have been lethal.
Old age markings
So on a slightly lighter note since turning 40 I have developed some age spots (or what my mother calls) ‘old-age markings’ on my face which is typical why couldn’t they appear on my arse – only one person sees that area and when he does I’m pretty sure he couldn’t care less about a blemish! OMG even thinking of that image with or without blemishes makes me cringe!
What will happen in the future
The current terror issues in the news play on my mind now and again. When you see such acts of violence against innocent people I worry about the type of world my children and grandchildren are going to have to live in. I try not to over think it too much and focus on a quote I saw which makes me feel better by Fred Rodger:
“When I was a boy and I would see scary things in the news, my mother would say to me “Look for the helpers. You will always find people who are helping.”
This is what I will tell my children because it is so true. We can all make a difference.
So just a few general musings of my 40ish mind this week. I hope some will make you smile and some will make you feel like we all are dealing with much of the same sh*t?
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